How many times have we encountered someone who carries so much guilt that they can’t believe God would or could ever forgive them? Even if one does not verbalize it, he sometimes thinks this way, perhaps even subconsciously, and that belief becomes paralyzing so that the person is unable to find his way back to God.
When I find myself feeling this way I am encouraged by the apostle Paul. He tried to extinguish the bride of Christ and did so believing he was doing the will of God. And he did so with more zeal than any of his peers (Gal 1:13-14), essentially making himself Satan’s right hand man. Paul said about this,
“For I am the least of the apostles, and not fit to be called an apostle, because I persecuted the church of God. But by the grace of God I am what I am, and His grace toward me did not prove vain; but I labored even more than all of them, yet not I, but the grace of God with me.” 1 Cor 15:9-10, NASB
Paul acknowledges that God’s grace was sufficient for him. If Paul, being a murderer of God’s children, could be redeemed by God’s grace and mercy, then anyone can. There is no sin too great for God’s grace to cover. I take great comfort from this important lesson in Paul’s life.